I'm thinking a lot about what it means to play. It's our big New Year's Resolution. "Play. A lot."
So what is that exactly?
David wrote about it on the Sparkle blog here and here. And he's a good one for playing. He likes to think of life's activities as games. He's always ready to engage in some silliness.
But me? I can be pretty silly too. My favorite current silliness is playing chase with my cat. We go back and forth through the house, hiding and jumping out and skittering about. It's so silly that even David will say "boys, your mom is chasing the kitty again."
But here's what I just noticed: I'm online looking at sites and blogs that might offer opportunities to feature Sparkle. And I get on a site I just love. And I'm perusing the entries and admiring the photos and getting to know the bloggers work, and just having a grand time. And then I freeze up. "You're supposed to be working!" scolds my brain. And I click off the site as fast as I can.
But then I realize "hey! I WAS working!" And of all impossible things: I was having a great time too!
This may sound a bit ridicuous, but this has been my model for work: to "work" means I put in all of my effort. I grit my teeth and raise my shoulders and hunker down. And there's too much to do to stop for long. WORK. Until you're done. Every t crossed and i dotted. WORK. Or until your eyes are crossing. WORK.
And then when it's over I go WHEW. I can finally take a break. I'll knit for 15 minutes before I GET BACK TO IT.
I tell you what: I'm ready to let that model go.
Next, I'm going to have lunch with my older son and take a sledding break. And I'm going to post a photo to prove it.